twinkle twinkle li'l star ,how i wonder what u r ..... !!

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It all seems like an old memory ,the time when i would laugh with all my heart till tears flew in my eyes ,the time i didn't feel lonely even with just familiar strangers around me , the time when i looked forward to set my hair down and enjoy without having a care for anything in the world ,the time when i felt really alive.

Now things have changed ,times have changed and so have I.

I've now reached a stage where loneliness is my only companion and the irony is that i seem to enjoy its constant long company !!!

I suddenly have no topics to talk to anyone ,the dry barren land ,those dark clouds amid clear sky ,that old tree with no leaves, all of them seem synonymous with the kind of life I'm presently leading.

The old torn curtain lets in light only through the pores.
I gaze at it for long hours , completely lost,

My senses all are failed ,in-built system all in a wreck ,so many questions ,my mind burns with n breaks ,but i get no answers for them and it just aches .

Those lovely old memories keep fluttering around. Where did that time go, when there was a sense of peace by just watching dew drops through my window, when just a butterfly sitting on my finger could curve my lips, when the only thing that could "hurt" were bleeding knees and the only things "broken" were toys !!

So many voices shout inside me but the world seems still and my senses numb.

I'm just fading away ,my essence is lost in the breeze far away...

Comments

  1. AnonymousNovember 06, 2010

    This is most common thing happening to any of us..
    but the trick to overcome it i guess is to stop thinking that a half filled cup as "half empty"... instead see it is as "half full"
    very nice..pathos

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  2. AnonymousNovember 06, 2010

    Vivekananda to the rescue.. :P :D

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  3. SujithNovember 07, 2010

    Well written:) These seem to be the problems associated with the short(but important) journey from adolescence to adulthood. As they say 'it is a bend, not the end ;-)'.

    Most people(myself included) are not receptive to drastic changes yet sometimes you just have to go with the flow....

    "I'm just fading away ,my essence is lost in the breeze far away ......................"- Well, life is made of ups and downs.. To lose and rediscover oneself is a most wonderful experience:)

    Now make sure in this tumultuous condition of your's, you don't drown anyone[ I mean literally ;-)].

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  4. Sushmita HegdeNovember 07, 2010

    @vik : m one day definitely going to take the vivekananda bhooth out of u !! ;)

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  5. Sushmita HegdeNovember 07, 2010

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  6. Sushmita HegdeNovember 07, 2010

    @sujith : this is the state bcoz of joining our college ;-) ;-P ,even that "bend" is a minor one in front of this drastic change !! :-0 :-)

    n heyy u r already making ur next plans ??its just been few days that the kitty was sent to heaven !! ;-)

    nyways thank u :-)

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  7. Whimsical nothings of a wandering mindNovember 28, 2011

    awesome :) i like the way you have depicted change :)

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  8. Sushmita HegdeDecember 01, 2011

    well this at some point of tm (now dont remember when :p) was my actual state !!

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