MyRiAd EmOtIoNs

I'm actually feeling weird from a couple of days ... A feeling that I can no longer feel anything and that nothing is affecting me!!! And its confusing .... Now wait a second ,does 'feeling nothing'  also fall under a type of feeling ?? And the 'confusion' following it is another emotion ??? WOAH !!!! Now this is something which has all the potential to keep me intrigued for a long time !!!

We are all born in this world with a 'cry' (sometimes forced :) ).This particular action is supposed to have made the doctors 'relieved' ,your family -'excited' ,your parents -'happy' ! :)

You start growing up being in the 'innocent' stage ,'thinking' that life is 'rosy' .You learn to 'laugh' WITH people to your hearts 'content' ,you start being 'friendly' with people, you start making others your friends ,you have 'affection' for them and learn to 'share' you goodies with those whom you 'care' .You have 'passion' for certain things .You find things 'curious' and learn about it 'enthusiastically' .You have 'belief' on people,'sympathy' for the weak and even 'kindness' to cure them . You 'stand up' for those who 'need' you and fill 'courage' to those who come seeking for your advice .You look up with 'gratitude' for those who did the same to you .You 'celebrate' your achievements,take 'pride' in them . You dance your 'joys' ....

In between, for some ,a single emotion of 'love' forms an entire phase in their life ! [And knowing the basics of programming I could put this in a flowchart followed by 2 other sets of emotions , one having the 'happily ever after' and the other to 'sad'ness ,'emptiness' .......

And then you reach to a stage where you are out in the 'bad' world .You are now surrounded by people who 'laugh' AT you .You 'lose' that special 'zeal' in you and life becomes 'boring'. You feel 'depressed' when you 'denied' to follow your passion .You'll 'fight' WITH the same people you once thought as those who would fight FOR you ....You witness 'terror' and may even cover a lifetime living a 'shock' . You lose 'faith' even in God sometimes and your 'trust' stands there broken .You 'fail' in life's tests .You 'blame' new acquaintances for the 'mistake' old friends did .You are suddenly exposed to some very 'cruel' feelings of 'anger' 'fear' 'jealousy' ,  'envy', 'anxiety', 'panic' ,'regret' ,'guilt' 'despair', 'disapointment','horror' ,'loathing' ,'disgust' ,'embarassment' ,'hostility' ,' misery' ,'sorrow' ......

You are so 'burdened' with all those emotions that you become 'indifferent' to everything else that happens and it reaches a still point ............. Now did I by any chance reach to the starting point again ??!